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{ Got in a little deeper than I expected and my awkward face was caught on cam lol! }

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Well I have to be honest here and say that I totally delayed this post due to plain old insecurities, getting into this swimsuit was a HUGE step for me! Now, it may seem silly since after all this is a one piece swimsuit right? Moms wear those all the time and aren’t those the perfect suits for covering things up? Yes, it is a one piece…a sexy one, a very high cut brazilian style one piece…that exposed quite a bit of my ass HA! But, when I saw this suit online I simply HAD to have it. I think in the back of my mind I was like “wow that’s a sexy suit, I wanna look sexy again” – which is totally ok right? To be a mom and still want to look sexy?! YES it is, and I am in love with this swimsuit even if for now I am only comfortable wearing it if my bottom half is covered lol.

Craig was at our vacation condo with the kids while I did this shoot with my sister in law as my step mom and brothers hooted down the beach teasing me to get out of my towel and stop being silly, that it looked great…and in my mind I just wished the beach was DESERTED. But of course, that night it was packed while people lined up along the shore line to check out the gorgeous sunset and this was our last night in Maui to get some photos done. I can say one thing, I totally feel my sexiest in one pieces since having our second babe, it covers my silver stretch marks that I earned after having Noah but when I put it on I literally would not exit the washroom without my towel around me. It took a phone call to one of my blogger friends Renee Leblanc over the phone to assure me that I was probably exaggerating about just how much of my butt was escaping the suit and to encourage me to try the shoot being half in the water…like a mermaid right!?! Thank gosh for that + a couple of pina coladas and this shoot ended up being SO much fun and taking me out of my comfort zone. It’s amazing just how bulletproof frozen vacation drinks (okay coconut rhum) can make you feel! There have been a ton of campaigns going on lately in social media really reminding us to appreciate our body image and not be so tough on ourselves and I am usually so proud of my mom bod and how it’s changed since having babes. It took this shoot to make me relax, shake my head a bit and remember that. I am not ashamed of the marks pregnancy left behind but sometimes I do want to keep them private and you can bet your ass I sometimes get upset thinking nothing looks good on me (and take it out on hubby)…it’s just how it goes. We fluctuate, we can dance around the room feeling like we’re hot stuff some days or have emotional breakdowns because our stretchiest of jeans don’t even fit right and that’s totally ok! I guess what I am trying to get at here is that even in motherhood it’s okay to want to feel sexy. What matters is that you are happy with yourself and who you are on the inside & outside.  xo